Post from Robyn Few of Sex Workers Outreach Project.

By robynfew

I find myself going back to the video that Serpent created about the National DC March. Each time I cry. I was crying everyday for awhile, I mean months, but finally that has stopped. So I find it a bit annoying that I am crying so much now. I must admit that I am watching all the video’s created about International Day to End Violence Against Sex Workers repeatedly. That could be contributing to my depression.

It’s funny that I get depressed every year about this time. Maybe it is because I regret all that I didn’t get done, or I wish that the year wasn’t over yet, or maybe I just ain’t ready for it all to start again. Another year, another dollar, blah blah. Okay, I know this sounds all negative and like I am feeling sorry for myself but I am not. That is why I am writing this. It’s funny, I wanted to post today because I feel like I have something good to say. Then I went to boundnotgagged.com, I found the swopdairies, all the places I want to speak out and I couldn’t remember how to sign in, post, any damn thing. It took me forever to get to this page. I find myself laughing at myself constantly. At least, I get enjoyment out of my old age, (I would prefer to call it stupidity but wouldn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings.)

Death changes everything, esp when you think it’s going to happen to you. It’s ridiculous really, because it is going to happen to all of us. It is just that most of us don’t dwell on it. When you are sick and things just ain’t feeling right, you positively have nothing else to think about. I have been thinking alot about the death of Norma Hotaling. Maybe because the two of us got cancer at the same time, but it freaks me out that I didn’t die. Why did she have to die? It’s the roll of the dice. She accomplished a lot in her time. A lot of which it will take us years to reverse, but she was unstoppable. She also had a great advantage over our movement, the feds, police and the DA’s loved her. I am afraid we are along way from that sort of relationship. I remember when I met Norma, I googled her when I was looking for help after my arrest. I read everything I could find on the web. Somewhere I read that she supported decriminalization. Her tune had to change after we started screaming decrim. She started saying that we had to arrest the clients, that she accomplished with the First Offenders Prostitution Project and the infamous ‘John’s School’. Norma you have left one hell of a legacy. All I can hope is that I can leave half the mark that you have. And I pray to the Almighty whoever that my legacy supports the rights of all humans to not get arrested for selling sex.

Women like Norma are right when they say that we must end the exploitation of the sex industry, but that will never happen in a criminalized system. There is exploitation in so many workplaces, workplaces from every industry. The advantage other industries have over ours is that they have the right to form unions, to fight for better working conditions. They have equal protection under the law, they are not being forced to give a blowjob to keep out of jail for the night. We need to be able to access services when we say we are proud sex workers. Sex workers who choose to use their genitals or to touch someone else’s privates to make money need equal rights, civil rights, fucking human rights. When we end the discrimination and stigma with decriminalization we will be able to fight for our rights in workplaces that are legal, ie exotic dance facilities, massage parlors and escort services.

Is this the year that people in the United States start to get pissed off that their Governor lost his job because of his sex life? Or are we gonna impeach a few republicans for fucking the wrong guy. Maybe a few more women will be found hanging from ropes in their homes because they can’t take the shame of walking out their front door everyday. What about your daughter or son that you haven’t seen in the past year? They left one day and you know they didn’t have a dime to their name, but hey they will make it somehow. What about that trans person they found behind the dumpster last night, what was their name?

It just brings me back to that thing I was talking about DEATH. It happens to all of us, we don’t dwell on it but it’s coming. I think the smart ones of us plan on the future, leaving something for their families, so forth so on. What are you going to do this year to plan for your future? I have made a few plans. I am very happy to be alive and I have decided that I need to celebrate that more. I have decided that I am going to put my efforts in a new direction. Maybe I won’t share all my plans with you but the point is I have some and they have to do with making my life and the people that I care about lives better. I hope that all of you have made some plans for the future. I hope they are positive and I hope that they support sex workers rights. I want to thank everyone for all the positive notes emails letters, cards and visits that you gave to me to make my life better. You make my life better.

Last thing I am going to say is donate your money to Sex Workers Outreach Project and thank you so much to all that have been donating. SWOP chapters everywhere are going to do tremendous things this year to end the criminalization of sex worki. They deserve your support. They are a great organization and they are going to get bigger, better and stronger then ever before. They are being led by young beautiful fantastic sex workers that need your support. Thank you SWOP for everything that you have given me. I will always be eternally grateful for what has happened to me and to the fabulous people I have met and been supported by.

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